now.

from that day onward,
i never expect this will happen,
it just came very suddenly and unexpected,

it already almost a month since i bring my mum for check up,
and is like a roller coaster ride for me after that, i'm very tired,

her result said kidney was infected with virus,
the white blood cell are killing all the red blood cell,
the Doctor from Pandai Hospital ask to for kidney operation,

so we went to HKL ( Hospital Kuala Lumper ), as doctor said,
staying at 3rd floor, 2nd class room, for almost a week,
still there's no doctor or check up of my mum,

the following 2nd week, my mum finally have the operation,
during the operation, the nurse did not give my mum any sleeping pill or shot,
she was fully awake in operation, after everything done, we visit her,
she told me everything in the operation, is very sad to heard that,

in the operation, the nurse did not know what she doing at all,
the nurse keep hurting my mum kidney by accident,
forcing the a small tube into my mum kidney,
and the doctor standing there did nothing about it,
after my mum scream very lough,
the doctor just take over, and handle by himself,

i cant imagine all of this happening,
but is truth, and the image keep popping out inside my mind,
:'(

few days later after the operation, my mum was moved to 3rd class WAD,
the doctor said is easy for nurse to taking care of her,
but in fate, they did not taking care of her also,
we ask for immediately change back to 2nd class,
we hope it will be more taking care of my mum,

yes, they did taking care more of my mum, after we complain it,
but the sleepless nights made my mum more ill and more weak,
after 2 to 3 sleepless night, my mum requested for change to 1st class,
and they did change to the 1st class, and my mum get welled very fast,
the nurse are even more checking with my mum,
they even serve western food and a people cleans every morning,

in that moment, we just think everything well be much more fine,
but we never expect the unexpected, after less than a week in the 1st class,
my mum kidney was recover, but gain another sickness,
Depression ..

is impossible to have Depression just of a kidney problem, 

and we also visit her everyday,
my father even go overnight with her after his finish work,
her Depression have been 5 days,
the 1st and 2nd day, we thought she my mum, just get too boring,
we even bring everything for her,

Day 4, the Depression started, she dint talk to us,
she did a lot of weak movement and stuff,
is really like a mindless people walking alive,

Day 5, the Depression is getting worse,
she cry every night, and cant sleep, and doing something to hurt herself,
we asked the doctor, why is this happening,
the doctor replies us with a word of side effect,

Doctor said she having too much medicine,
and causes the side effect,
is nothing to worried about,
and the doctor give more medicine for her,

Day 6, is the last night staying in hospital,
the depression is horrible and scary,
my father cant even sleep well after that,

the following next day we immediately take her our from the hospital,
and move to my uncle house, my uncle house have mate and people taking care of her,
now she staying there, today is her 2nd day out of hospital,
but she still need to go back to hospital everyday for injection,

my dad every morning, go to my uncle house, bring her to hospital,
fetch her back to uncle place, and come back for work,
is hurt for me watching this all happening,

in this moment, we all just do whatever we can,
and let her recover as soon as possible.


even for me, i cant sleep well every night,
cried few times for this happening,
sick, and trying to recover myself,
trying my best for everything, 

and yet, the main problem haven't end,
the others stuff came..

now i just hope i have the strange to handle everything and someone i can talk with...
:'(